Hello little voice…

A full day of work today. Productive contentment and focus in the storm tossed tea house.

And yet I noted when I was writing, a little voice in my head was my constant companion. It was always there and just kept saying over and over “But THIS doesn’t count…”
Haha! Hello little voice! What’s that you say?
Writing an ebook doesn’t count – because I might not make any money from it
Proofreading a brochure I’m getting paid for doesn’t count – because it’s easy
Spell checking and working on layout for my ebook doesn’t count because it’s just admin
Reading the Business Goddess book doesn’t count
And lunch certainly doesn’t count…
And this doesn’t count, because it’s just a blog post. And not even the post I was supposed to be writing. And aren’t I lazy for not having posted anything for over 24 hours.
And it got me thinking – what DOES count for my little voice? What DOES it find acceptable?
Dear little voice. What do you want and where did you come from? Why are you so hard on me? I work very, very hard. I do work that I love with dedication. I endeavor to bring joy, goodness and learning into the world. I love my family very much and do my best by them. But still you scoff and scorn and chastise and beat me with your stick throughout my busy days.
Dear little voice in my head, this is the Year of Enough. Take a rest, you must be tired.  
  1. Anonymous
    Anonymous11-17-2011

    Oh i hear you little voice….i abore that little voice. You are brilliant for going after what you love… and brave for writing and being creative and then getting something out of it. I am jealous and i am also a new follower of your blog and while i don’t share all your views i agree with some especially this one and also love the way you write and enjoy your musings…thank you.

  2. Anonymous
    Anonymous11-17-2011

    ps that should spell abhor not abore…but you get me right?

  3. Dreamingaloudnet
    Dreamingaloudnet11-18-2011

    I get you! And thanks for commenting new Anon… you’ve got my little voice curious- what do we disagree on?… Please say it’s not the moonlight booby dancing! Or the cake eating. Anything else and we’ll be firm friends!! :)

  4. Motherfunker
    Motherfunker11-18-2011

    Ah you know my little friend? I thought she was just my pal!
    Yep, she’s always saying Bah! rubbish! Whatever I do, she’s there to sabotage. The thing to do is tell her she’s no fun and that she should dream a bit bigger!!! That’s what I’m saying to her at the moment!
    X

  5. Things Hand Made
    Things Hand Made11-18-2011

    My little voice sometimes me it doesn’t count if there no financial contribution from it. Then I get very angry with the little voice because I dislike money being attached to everything. I need another way of measuring my worth.

  6. Karien
    Karien11-18-2011

    I hear you, and your little voice… People ask me whether I work, and I never know what to answer. I am busy publishing my second book, have two blogs (and the third one, an english one, on the way!), write for several magazines. But as most of this is unpaid I hear myself saying, ‘No, well, ehm, sort of…’
    Do you have to be paid for it to be called work? O, and let’s not forget my other ‘work’, caring for 3 children not yet in school. Again, unpaid and not work, yet the hardest thing I ever did…

  7. Karien
    Karien11-18-2011

    Your little voice, like mine, is the product of a society that measures value only in money.

  8. Dreamingaloudnet
    Dreamingaloudnet11-18-2011

    You know what MF, would you see if she’d just be your friend, cos I’m a bit fed up with her right now! Except, you know what, she’s a HE! And HE’s a big meaney.

    @Things Hand Made and Karien – yes, a big, big bit is attached to money – but it’s also attached to me just being crap. And weird, really doesn’t like me wearing hippy skirts and moon dancing and clay sculpting – and writing don’t get him started on writing!

    It’s a wonder I get to be me- I guess for years I didn’t, cos I believed him…

    But NOW, NOW I’m happy being weird little writer chick in floaty skirts!!

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